i'm sorry good luck

Suddenly i want to wrote in english. hahahhaa.. agak anehh.. but, it's real.. actually i already type in indonesian, but suddenly turn 180 degree.. ENGLISH here i come.. hahahhaa.. pure, funny, light, gradually, smart or stupid.. what ever..

well,, the title is kinda weird... i'm sorry good luck... really don't know why i have to wrote this blog.. this is a blog that i wrote in a real note good conditions..felt sorry for some ppl, but, don't know why, seems like i have a little fever that i didn't tell y'all.. and didn't plan to tell y'all... :)

these days, i felt like i'm leavin,, leave him, leave her, leave them, leave those.. it's trully madly totally not bcoz of my own wish.. but i have to do it... meaby this couple days makes some ppl cry, makes some ppl laugh, or makes some ppl felt guilty like me.. and i know the way it feels to cry, it's damn hard.. even i don't want to obviously.. hahaa,, funny isn't it??? ppl like me , stuborn,frank,light, simple,,  ppl often told to me, don't do it.. but i still do it.. but these couple days, i succesfully didn't do it.. and it seems like... welll,, it's worthed.. although some ppl will hate me so damn high, but it's oke.. AOKEY..i can take that.. it's my risk. my job, my pride, my wisdom...like lilo said :" family means family.. there's nobody kids left behind of forgotten.."it's like me.. i own these family for a year,, i'm the kid.. and kids are not left behind or forgotten..

for someone who realize it , all i want to say is that,,, no matter how hard you try to like me, don't like me too much, no matter how deep is your love to me,. don't love me too deeply, no matter how care you are, please, don't care me much.. why? it's not bcoz  I don't want to, or I forbidden u.. but it's just let me be it.. let me be the person who care u much, who love u much, who like u much.. if u mad at me.. it's oke, if u care for me i deeply , madly, trully thank you..

i'm sorry i have being dumb these few days, but it's just because i care for you.. someday u will know ,, what i did to u these few days, is for your own good reason.. u don't know how hard i try to treat you like that,, i hope that someday u don't have to know the way it feels like that.. :)

The most ppl hate to do it, the more we can't afford to try not to do it.. hahaha.. oww,, how ironic is that.. there are no suspections, big no protection for being haters. hahahhaha.. coz humble ppl don't do stuff like that.. means.. i'm not quite humble to being humbler, nor being jerk.. *thanks godamed frankly*

When i saw your blog,, i deeply felt sorry for being jerk at that time.. i'm sorry i'm not there, i'm sorry i don't sell my shoulder to have you lying for.. i'm sorry i can't be there.. i'm sorry you have to pass that day, i know it's hard, but not just bcoz i know u can pass it,, doesn't mean i didn't try tp help u to solve it,it's just i have my own way. i'm sorry i don't show u the way,i'm sorry if u can't see the light stripes chalk that i made for you. i'm sorry i still have time to pretending i don't care about u, i'm sorry i felt guilty about u, and i'm sorry coz  i cried for u...forgive me let it fall.. it's one in a million the chances  catch  of lighting.

i'm sorry i can't walk back in my life, but u can secretly take my hand, pull me close and i'll be your guide, it's oke if u don't want to be guide by me, u just need to prove it u don't need my guide.. but PLEASE do it correctly, not silently,, silent is not a perfect way to say no, but frankly and be honest to me is the best..please don;t make me worried, please locked your own way, let u hold ir own key, won't u promise me? show me where we go next???
no matter how hard u push your self trying to be success.. remember, i don't care about last week, i don't care about a thousand wonderful miles that we have been though, i don't care how succed last 2 event, for me, u have been though these days alone, it's been my pleasure to have knowing that u have your own will to be success..
and one more think, don't be afraid to fall, coz i know, u wont fallen.. u'll be save. i believe it. :)
remember you have to move on, don't look back, don't look what ppl have been done, how good is that, it's them, not you. you have to be who you are, you know what's the best for u..shortly, you have ur own way to give us what's the best u got..not what's the best u got from me or other ppl.. :)  jiayou! :)